Not so ironically, this book I might add is dubbed by many reviews as “A book that will make you believe in God”.
For fear of sounding too much like Yoda (fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to the dark side…) this is how I have the two sides of the battle laid out in my head (roughly):
Side note: Want to learn something interesting about an individual? Ask them about a time when they remember being most afraid, and how they dealt with it.
Fear for me disguises itself for me in anxiety and worry. I believe fear seeps in and makes me quite selfish; as fear ultimately turns me to preoccupy with myself. Ultimately, fear seems to disconnect me from God and the world, and leaves me isolated, alone and ineffective. However, it is amazing to me how much of the day I am able to fill with concern, worry and ultimately attempt to control my life and things around me to combat the constant anxious nibbling of my mind.
Ghandi brings worry into conversation with God in this interesting quote:
“There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever.” (thinkexist.com)
But I also believe fear can be the turning point that brings us to faith. Here is where I believe the battle part comes in. The trick seems to not assume your fears, or wrestle with them or to control them. The trick seems to be articulate them, and then release them and replace them with faith. Letting faith in God, love for life and general confidence overtake those fears.
So I will do my best to examine this for myself. Here are some of my current fears that have been causing me to run in circles of doubt:
I am scared to write this blog
I am scared I am disconnected from God and my faith
I am scared of offending some of the people reading this blog by what I say
I am scared in the end I won’t end up making a difference in the world
“For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God…” –Romans 8:38-39